Week 16 525,600 Minutes

My life in 525600 minutes of 2015. 

Let me just say, this year was by far the worst year ever.

In January I started off the year with a recent break up which was in November of 2014. I was torn and lost motivation for most things. I cried and cried. Not much to say because I didn't really do much.
In February I had a guy who wanted to change how I felt and make me feel better because he knew I was torn. He asked to be my valentine and I said yes. Little did I know he had a girlfriend and basically he ditched me. I then spent my Valentines day alone. I also had homecoming. I wasn't asked out by the boy that I had last year and I regret going to the dance. I was so alone and I hated it.
In March track started. Something I was so excited for because we co-oped with another school. I was excited, hoping that they would be fast for relays. I also met a friend that I have now. I started feeling a little better.
In April I turned 15. I spent it with some friends. I had a pretty decent birthday. Track was great. I felt super fast. Not much happened.
In May I got the boyfriend I have now. We were kind of rushed into the relationship though. We recently have had problems but were not gonna touch on that. I also had a guy friend who flipped out on me because he thought me and him were going to date and made me feel like crap about it.
In June I went to Texas for the month because my grandmother had Alzheimer's and she was pretty much at her last stage. I threw a fit pretty much that whole time because I didn't want to be there. ( I know it sounds bad but bear with me)
In July I saw fireworks and they were beautiful. I got kissed under the fireworks. ^///^ Not much really happened in July though. My great grandmother had died of Alzheimer's though.
In August is when school started again. I was excited and then about two weeks in I hated it. School was alright I just didn't like it at all. It was also way to hot. I entered in an Art show and won. I felt really happy. I love doing art and winning at something that I love makes me feel unbelievably happy.
In September I don't remember much that happened. Just another month for me I guess. I signed up for CASA.
In October there was homecoming, I didn't go because I didn't want to. I just cant go to homecoming the same. I still had my boyfriend but I just didn't want to go. Then Halloween happened. I didn't go out and do my make up or anything like I wanted to, I just went and saw a movie. Scholastic bowl also started around in this month. I love it.
In November Basketball started. I was super pumped about the co-op with Henry. The only thing I didn't want to do was go to Henry everyday. I met some really nice ladies. We had a couple of games and they were fun. When I was block, making girls mad was the best thing ever. I enjoyed it so much.
Now in December. This month has probably been the happiest yet depressing month yet. Its like the period that girls get of months. I almost broke up with my boyfriend this month and now we have reduced on talking. I quit basketball because it is was too much for me. I recently started talking to the person in the Wallflower post of week 12. That is probably the best thing ever. But because I am friends with this wallflower, I lost two of my best friends. They just don't like this wallflower. But its not their choice who I'm friends with and who I'm not friends with. If they were true friends they wouldn't choose my friends for me. I also took this really great car ride the other day and it lowered my stress. I'm glad though that I am friends with the person I'm friends with.

Overall, this year was just... life I guess.

Week 15 Who stole the snow?

Raine Showers is making inaccurate weather reports. He stole a weather controller from the government. I now have to break into their house and steal it. So I would go to his house and walk through his front door because he would be doing his inaccurate weather reports. I would then run through his house to find the controller that he has held in his house. I would take it with me since its rather small and run out of his house leaving everything open. I left cabinets, windows and his  refrigerator/ freezer open. He deserves to have his house freeze in the wintery cold months and his food to spoil. I would take it home and keep it so no one can mess up the weather. 

Week 14 No Gravity

There is no gravity for everyone but me... I can walk normally and everyone is stuck where they are at because if they step outside they would be in the sky. While everyone is on the ceiling at school I would look up at them and say SEE YA! and leave. I would walk around town being as loud as possible so if people can look outside they would be like WHAT THE?! And then I would just walk around. Only bad thing: I can only walk because all cars have floated away. My friends are either at their house or at school and I would have to see them upside down along with everyone else. This would definitely be something that I wouldn't want to be in for a long time. Hopefully things will get back to normal soon because I wouldn't like where I was at. 

Week 13 THANKSGIVIN

So that Thanksgivin is comin up... We usually have turkey with stuffing, CHEESY MASHED PERDERDERS!, green bean casserole, rolls, and apple pie with ice cream. The only thing that I don't eat is the stuffing in the turkey or the green bean casserole. I look forward the most to apple pie with ice cream. The thing that disappears the fastest is the green bean casserole. Which is the most disgusting thing on the planet. Usually during thanksgiving we don't do anything but watch the parade and go through Black Friday magazines/ newspapers to see what we would want for Christmas. Since apparently I ruined Christmas last year I don't get anything this year but that's a different story.  I think this year, I'm going to eat breakfast, go through magazines, go to my room and talk to my boyfriend, go for a run, maybe do some art and listen to music all day since I have no life and there's really nothing to do.

Week 12 Thank a wallflower

#1 I would like to thank someone for the memories. They probably wont ever read this but that's okay. I loved how they got me into photography and see everything in a different way. I simply cannot look into nature or the sunset or a pile of leaves the same. I see art and perspective. If only they knew what I thought of them today. I wouldn't love certain songs that have recently came back into my life. This person defiantly has a place in my heart forever. If I could hangout with them one more time I would definitely would. I would like to catch back up with them. I had gotten into kingdom hearts so much more since I've knew this person. (its a video game for those who don't know) I find a passion to walk and run since this person was around in my life. This person encouraged the good for me and not the bad. Although he did things that weren't the greatest he still wouldn't let me do any of it. They molded me to the person I am today. I miss them so much I really do. :(

#2 Is my online friends. I have 3 that I have been friends with since 2012. I love them to death. They are by far my best friends. I would choose them over everyone I've ever known including the person above. My online friends have been there for the hard times and they make me laugh uncontrollably. They're my bros.(: Roman, Corey and Joe. (People may have heard me say JJ for Joe) They make me feel beautiful. They make me feel like the person that I should be. They encourage the good things for me and not the bad. I've even met one in person. I would do anything for them and anything to see them. Were even thinking about going to college together because were all 15 except one is 17. I love them so much. Nothing will or can take them away from me. 

Week 11 The Back of My Closet

If I reached my hand in the back of my closet and found a cold doorknob, I would freak. I would open the door to see a portal to the past. It would start off when I was born and progress as the years go by. I would see my past from the beginning of the year to the end in 5 minutes. You could jump in at anytime and relive what you have done. If I would wait an hour and five minutes I would jump back in and redo what I have done. Back in 2013. That year was by far the best year of my life and I would fix the mistakes that would have happened. I would have never started a relationship that started in the beginning of the year and effect the one I had later in the year. I would probably still be with that person today if that was changed. We both probably would benefit from that today if we still were together. I would also love to relive those days. They were the best days of my life. I stayed a friends house almost the whole summer. I was so happy. I would see the people who made me happy and comfortable. I would relive all of the best days that happened in the summer. I would do anything to go back and fix everything that I did wrong if I had the knowledge of what I was doing. The memories get to me and I miss them so much. I wouldn't want it any other way. 

Week 10 Hudsons prompt

I see a house that no one dares to go to. They all dare me to go up to it and I scream: CHALLENGE ACCEPTED (Just like Barney from HIMYM) I was dressed as Jeff the Killer. Turns out, the house contained a witch and I interrupted her movie marathon. She put a spell on me and now I'm Jeff the killer. I don't have powers with my costume but I have become a serial killer. I have a couple people in mind I would visit first. First I say this is LEGEN- wait for it.... Then I would basically have the enjoyment of killing the people that got on my nerves. I would definitely scare my boyfriend but wouldn't kill him. I would definitely enjoy that. You can't exactly escape from Jeff. I would go to the ends of streets and stand there in a killer pose waiting for people to come home and question who was there. I would probably have to kill off the cops and hide them so no one would know. There is one person in particular that I would scare or kill. I would go to their house and into their room waiting for them to come home. I would just stand there and watch their reaction. They might not believe that I turned into Jeff the killer but they might think it was actually me. I would then grab a hold of them and throw them against their wall where their bed is and say -DARY and wait for their reaction. They would probably know it was me after that if they were too shocked in fear to know who it was. I would explain to them what happened. That was if I decided not to kill them. I would probably ask to get changed back because I wouldn't want to be wanted by the FBI or anything. I would change back and act like nothing happened after that.

Week 9 Being Shrank

I was shrunk. Hmmm... I don't know how to feel about this... Well I'm lost in the classroom and everything is so much bigger than I thought it would be. I the size of an ant and my life is at extreme risk. To survive I would probably stay on one side of the room so I wouldn't die. I would eventually make my way to Miss Hudson's desk. I would then Jump up and down on Miss Hudson's pen until she realized that I was there. Now if I had to wait a couple of days before I could get back to normal and be resized I would probably go to someones house and just straight up stalk that person until they saw me and helped me. Not much to do when you're so tiny.

Week 8 Explaining Science... Sort of

How does a person see what they see? Just look at the way you're reading this right now. How are you doing this? How do you see everything so sharply? Well I'll tell ya. You are doing this by imagination. None of this is for real. Your mind is making this all up. What if the people who do drugs are people who see the world as it is? What if oxygen is making us hallucinate to see a world we would rather see, rather than the world as it really is? What if one day you wake up as a baby and realize your whole life was a dream? It is all done by your imagination. You're not really here you're just believing you're here. For all you know you're actually an alien on mars on drugs and you're imagining what other life is like. You're imagination is vast. You don't want to stop believing because you're scared what might happen next, that's why we carry on. No one knows what happens after death. Do you enter another world of imagination? Do you repeat your life again just without no memory of doing this at all? Are you reborn as someone else? We all eventually die. We all stop breathing and thinking at one point. What happens after that? Only our imagination will know. We wont know because the universe doesn't think we are prepared for the answer yet.

Week 7 Scariest experience

I don't get scared so much to other people, except when they jump scare me and all but those don't count. I remember it was 8th grade year and I went to the Halloween dance here at school as Jeff the Killer. I did my makeup just like Jeff the Killer and I dressed in all black clothing. I had a wig and I took off my glasses and no one knew who I was. I was talking to a boy who is now my ex and he had a friend staying at his house. It was roughly about 9-10 pm at night and they were walking up to Casey's. I saw them and I was like MOM LET ME SCARE HIM! And she pulled over to the side and let me out. They went across the street to see me scare him from a side view. I went behind him and yelled his name and grabbed him. His friend ran a bit down the street and turned around realizing that he left him and just stopped right there to see what I was going to do. My ex was like WHO ARE YOU?! I wouldn't answer him and he kept repeating himself. I said, you don't recognize me? My voice, my height and my costume? And he still had no idea. I told him that it was me and he had the biggest sigh of relief. I hugged him and it seemed like he almost peed himself. My parents laughed so hard. They told me they wish they would have recorded it.

Week 6 Lets play a game(:

Lets say that we are in a post apocalyptic era. Barely anyone is left but me and my friends and strangers. There are zombies everywhere. There's no where really to go because pretty much everywhere thinkable is infected with zombies. I feel like I would survive longer than most people in the movies. They are just dumb. They make things so obvious in many movies on what was to happen next. I would probably either be in the high mountainous regions, southern states, islands or flee the country to somewhere else. There wouldn't be that many people in the mountainous regions but in the cities there would be more chance to become one of them. The southern states where its less populated. The islands that are clear of zombies. If I fled the country, I don't exactly know where I would go, just someplace away from where zombies were. It wouldn't take long for the other continents to be infected either. I feel like the first thing people would want to do is leave the country where there is no worry but if they were already infected with it, it would spread quickly. I would also get all the resources possible to have and weapons ready to go. I wouldn't be the type to kill easy but I would help as far as food and everything else. I would also have certain days where we would leave together to go find resources. That also means we would need a backup place to possibly go if when we came back that there was zombies everywhere. The hardest thing I think I would face is having to let go one of my friends if they were infected. I don't know how I would live with myself. If it was my boyfriend too I wouldn't know what to do either. Lets just hope this never happens.

Week 5 Fictional World

If I could visit a fictional world, I would visit Middle Earth. I love the Hobbit. I love nature and that place is very beautiful in some areas. If I was there I would simply visit and take a bunch of pictures. I love photography with a passion. I would take so many picture from my point of view. I would go to Bilbo Baggins little home and be scrunched in there like Gandalf. I would hang out with Frodo, Bilbo Baggins, and Gandalf. They are my favorite characters in the movie. I would explore and go on adventures with them. I would go on the same adventure they went on in their movies. I would also dress like the girls do in the movie. (:

Week 4 Urban Legends

By far two of my favorite Urban Legends are Slender man and Jeff the Killer. Slender man is a tall man with no face wearing a suit and has tentacles. Ones who encounter him are not found anywhere after that. Stories of Slender man have him to where he stalks, abducts or traumatizes people. Mainly children. Jeff the Killer is by far my favorite Urban Legend. It's about a thirteen year old kid who moved to a new town. He was bullied by a group of kids and the next day the police showed up at his house because witness say they saw Jeff beating up the kids bullying him. His brother took the blame for beating up the kids when Jeff hurt them. Jeff was invited to a party later to find out the bullies were there to take revenge on Jeff. He then tried to apologize about it but they don't forgive him and then they attack him. He had bleach poured all over him and a bottle of vodka smashed against his head and was set on fire. When it was put out he was sent to the hospital. His face was now pale and his lips were red. Jeff snapped a while ago and said that he loved his face. The doctor thought he went insane but was sent home. When he was home he went to the bathroom and cut a permanent smile into his face and burned off his eyelids. Jeff's mom saw him and told her husband and Jeff overheard that they wanted to kill him and instead he killed them first. He then went for his brother and plunged a knife in his heart. He then told him to GO TO SLEEP. These two are my favorite Urban Legends. I fell in love as soon as I heard this. I wasn't scared of them but I kinda kept my eyes peeled for Slender man when I'm in any sort of woods.

Week 3 Song Influence

I chose three songs that really influenced my life. They are not the only songs that have influenced me. Farewell by The Amity Affliction influenced me recently. This is a alternative metal band in general. It's about saying goodbye to everything that there is. What first got my attention about the song was the tune of it. It fit the lyrics of the song. Then I heard what the lyrics were saying and what it meant. It's my current favorite song. I have had to say goodbye to many thing in my life and this song kinda reminded me of it all. It expressed my feelings and emotions during the tough times that I have had. The next song that influenced me was Flowerbomb by The Amity Affliction. It's kinda about being suicidal at first and then going passed all of those thoughts and moving on. I never really was suicidal but I understood what it meant. Some of my friends have been suicidal and I understood what they went through and I was always there for them. That song really reminded me of those times where I was upset and some of my friends and what they went through. The other song that I chose was Tears on the Runway by Issues. This reminds me of how I felt and was at times when dating a certain someone. It explained exactly how I felt and somewhat how I was. I lost someone to another girl and that struck me hard. I was upset for months. A couple lines in the song specifically reminded me of it. "You think you're running away, And you're leaving all your troubles behind, But I'm not going with you this time, I don't wanna try to pretend I'm somebody else, Take me as I am or be left alone..." He left me and started a new life with getting a car, a job and he had a new girlfriend. He basically ran away from the troubles of being a kid. He needed to move on with his life and grow up. By doing that apparently lead him to a new girl and he left me. He left me behind and that's what the next line in the song means. He thought that I was changing to fit his needs and he didn't like that I was changing for him. He wanted me to be myself and not someone else. He obviously couldn't accept how and who I was. He didn't take me as I was and left me in the dark crying at a bad time in my life. This song struck me hard after me and him broke up.


Farewell- The Amity Affliction
I said farewell to the sunlight,
Said farewell to the sea,
And farewell to my loved ones,
There's no hope left for me!
Farewell to my sorrow,
And farewell memories,
Misery for company,
There's no hope left for me!
I was searching for religion,
Couldn't find my place,
But there was nothing there but empty faith
How can you find your way through ignorance and tolerance and hate?
Farewell "God" you won't find me,
I've lost my faith but I am free,
So search your heart and you will see there's no hope in misery.
I said farewell to the sunlight,
Said farewell to the sea,
And farewell to my loved ones,
There's no hope left for me!
Farewell to my sorrow,
And farewell memories,
Misery for company,
There's no hope left for me!
No hope!
No hope!
No hope left for me!
No gods!
No gods!
No gods left for me!
No hope!
No hope!
No hope left for me!
Farewell "God" you won't find me,
I've lost my faith but I am free,
So search your heart and you will see there's no hope in misery.
I said farewell to the sunlight,
Said farewell to the sea,
And farewell to my loved ones,
There's no hope left for me!
Farewell to my sorrow,
And farewell memories,
Misery for company,
There's no hope left for me!
Farewell "God" you won't find me,
Farewell "God" you won't find me,
Farewell "God" you won't find me,
Farewell "God" you won't find me...

Flowerbomb -The Amity Affliction
Well I know there's been times when I wished I would die,
but I swear yeah I swear oh I swear I'm past that,
and I'll swear if you will that I will not look back,
yeah I swear if you will that I will not look back.
Take a deep breath now, pass the shallows,
stay steady and hold on, through the darkness we all know.
And I swear yeah I swear yeah I swear if you will, 
to hold onto life, yeah I'll hold on if you will...
So on to the ocean and into the sea, so balanced and calm now, that's where I will be.
So on to the ocean and into the sea wash away all my problems wash away memories.
Back then - always through the shattered glass
I stared at my life, and oh I wished I would die,
but I swear yeah I swear oh I swear I'm past that - 
is this all what it seems - I can't believe that I made it.
Take a deep breath now, pass the shallows,
stay steady and hold on, through the darkness we all know -
And I swear yeah I swear yeah I swear if you will, to hold onto life,
yeah I'll hold on if you will...
So on to the ocean and into the sea, so balanced and calm now, that's where I will be.
So on to the ocean and into the sea wash away all my problems wash away memories.
Take a deep breath now, pass the shallows,
stay steady and hold on, through the darkness we all know.
And I swear yeah I swear yeah I swear if you will, 
to hold onto life, yeah I'll hold on if you will...
So on to the ocean and into the sea, so balanced and calm now, that's where I will be.
So on to the ocean and into the sea wash away all my problems wash away memories.


Tears on the Runway - Issues
What if I was wrong, and jumped to conclusions
Cause the chance of losing you was all too dangerous
So I just assume that you're doing things before you get the chance
So I can leave and feel like I've got the upper hand
Guilty yeah, maybe I'm just scared to go all in
Never was much for the life of gambling
But you can't win if you don't play
If you don't play there's no shame in us
Let's call a spade a spade

Cause you left your tears on the runway
You think you're running away
And you're leaving all your troubles behind
But I'm not going with you this time
I don't wanna try to pretend I'm somebody else
Take me as I am or be left alone
Tears on the runway
You know that you love the chase

I said I wouldn't let you down
But it's like we both have changed somehow
You've made a disease of this town
But you act like you don't care but you left

A wise woman said, I wish people weren't afraid of love
Then she packed her sh** and ran
Like a coward when the thunder struck

Cause you left your tears on the runway
You think you're running away
And you're leaving all your troubles behind
But I ain't with you this time
I don't wanna try to pretend I'm somebody else
Take it or leave it
Tears on the runway
You know that you love the chase
Baby love
You know me too well
You know me too well
You know that I love the chase

Week 2 Brag

I tend not to brag much about myself because it annoys people. But, here goes nothing. It was my very first year in track and everyone wanted me to join super bad. I went to state my very first year in track. I was undefeatable in the 200 meter dash. I got first in every single one of my races. I got first in my heat of running in state and its even on youtube. Unfortunately I didnt place in state that year. Last year in track I got a lot of medals and ribbons for races. I teach myself how to play piano. I dont even know the keys I just play and get some of my tunes off of youtube. I think I draw pretty well. My art was put into an art gallery last year. I recently put my art into an art contest in Lacon the other day. There are so many people who think I will win but I dont know. I painted the grade school boys bathroom over the summer. I tried to teach myself hula hooping and dancing. Its not easy and I'm still practicing. Im slowly improving but its not something that I would show off. I also do photography. I actually think my photography is really good with a lot of meaning behind the picture. I get straight A's. I really take my school seriously most of the time and Its not something I want to joke about. I recently started forming abs. I am really trying to achieve this goal and keep it because it would be nice to have them. Last year when we did the mile in P.E I was the fastest girl who did the mile in highschool. I love to bake. I get told all the time how much people love my baking. A lot of people like the designs that I make on cakes too. Bragging to me is annoying. Thats why I generally dont do this.

Week 1 School

This year I'm a sophomore. I was pretty excited to come back to school. My summer was just getting good towards the end but I didn't see much of my friends over the summer. The first day of school was so hot! That day I was not looking forward to coming to school anymore. I was reminded of the August heat from last year. So far the classes that I have are pretty great. The only class I'm not looking forward to is Biology II and Algebra II. I had a hard time in that class taking Biology I last year and I just don't like algebra in general. The class I look forward to everyday would have to be advanced art. I have a passion for art that no one will ever understand. One major goal I have been working on is that I want to be valedictorian when I graduate, so I'm trying to get straight A's all year like I did last year. I'm taking the last couple of years I have in high school to achieve this. I'm thinking about joining basketball this year. I cant wait for track to start up again. I've been training at home and out in town doing a run and workout. I run all the time. I enjoy it and it makes me ready for track next year. I feel like this school year with be a decent year.